Anti-Christmas

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Apologies, regarding my 30 day writing thing, everything when to shit as finals rolled around.

But I will continue before this year finishes.

Moving on to Christmas though, you know that picture perfect movie-esque family time that everyone tries to emulate. I just had a feeling that wasn’t going to happen in my household this year. How?
Months prior I saw how my parents were acting, throw in my mom and my aunt not talking to each other I knew this was not going to be a very jolly Christmas.

And thus even after my finals were done which they were done pretty early ( I was done 2 days into finals just starting) so I had like 3 weeks of break. Which I did not want to spend at home, in my tiny ass house, with my family. So I stayed with my friends for another week, and honestly even though I felt like I had no purpose being there, (I feel like my home town I’m suppose to chill and the moment I to the city where my school is I’m suppose to study) so the moment I had nothing to study it felt weird. But nonetheless, I stayed, played squash, actually took notes for next semester, binged how I met your mother, had dinner etc. It was great.

Then coming home, just didn’t settle with me. I really didn’t wanna leave.

Walking into my front door, there was the tree in the corner, well decorated too actually, my mom did a great job. I’m the one who always sets up the tree with no help, decorates it, decorates the house, windows, railings etc. and you know just sets the holiday mood.

There was no holiday mood to set this year. Maybe it’s the lack of winter as well, but dear lord, it was draining to be in that home.
Honestly without that tree in the room, there are 5 gifts in the living room and nothing else to show for Christmas spirit.

I also don’t know what to buy anyone so I have yet to do christmas shopping, and there’s 2 days left. Throw in the constant fights, a tiny house which takes you like 30 steps to walk from one side to another, no snow, and one sad tree there is no hope.

I understand this time is for family and stuff, but nothing is really helping this year.

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Holiday.

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The holiday season has not lived up to its expectation this year. And this is coming from a girl who damn well enjoys Christmas cheer. Except for all the Christmas songs; can’t stand them.

Due to the fact I only had one exam this term I was home the seventh of December, pretty early compared to everyone else. But while I was away from home for three months, a lot has happened.

The parentals have moved into a new home, might I say everything about it sucks. Because they moved, I still to this day have no internet (This post was originally written on December 18th) I had to tether my phone as a hotspot so I can pay for my
courses. Fun times.
Multiple boxes everywhere, and by the time I spent two days in this house, it sucked my spirit dry. Before I got home, I was so ready to set the tree up, decorate my house, and make it as lively as possible since the stress of
school was over. But now I think I liked it better in my 3×2 room. That is really saying something.

Though I have done some bonding with my sister, because she’s 8, I’ve decided it was time to expose her to the 8 films of Harry Potter. With my new found patience from school I was able to not get annoyed and
explain the story to her. She’s enjoying it thus far.

There’s T-minus 5 days until Christmas and I don’t know how I feel about it. Maybe once the internet comes back I’ll be good. (It’s back technically since I uploaded this)