Regret?

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I know before I was complaining about how it was hard to make friends, and now in a week my whole floor is like family.
Of course there are people you like less than others, and others who you would want to spend more one on one time with. And all my life I’ve never really had a huge friend group at a time. Though I always did wonder how it would feel to have a large group of friends.

I realized there are many pros and cons to having your whole floor as your friends.

For example, if I wanted to have a one on one and make a connection with one person it’s so hard to do! Or to drink with a few friends…nuh uh. That will not happen…ever. There is no secrecy, and I for sure need mine! I don’t share my life story with everyone, and I’m not choosing now to start. Everyone also seems to know about your plans as well.

Though if we wanted to go to a party most of us would be down. And there’s always someone for a lunch/dinner date, BUT you may get that random person that may join.

I know it’s only been my second week, but I realized that I have to be careful of what I say and how I act. It’s not like I don’t like these girls I’m just not used to this many people, and my distrust in people doesn’t help either.

sigh.

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Friends!

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I remember someone saying that it’s really lonely floating around in space alone, since there’s no sound anywhere. I don’t think I realized the severity of that situation until recently. 
I mean, think about that; I myself always say “Yea, I can handle being by myself for a bit” but realistically I still have my phone on me, and I’m MOST LIKELY listening to my music on full blast. 

No matter how alone you are there are distractions that can help kill time. But in space, where there’s PURE silence and you, and the dark universe surrounding you. Now that my friends, is real alone-ness. 

But I’m glad I met people today that I can be me around, and talk about similar things, learn knew things, have them open my world just a little more. That tiny fear of making friends is slowly fading as the days go on. (Though I do have a faculty meeting thing which I’m not excited for at all).