Damn.

This is coming from a short brown girl. Who’s believed her whole life that no Asian man of any sort would find a brown girl attractive.
I may be delusional or perhaps drunk (let’s be real that’s when these things happen) but tonight has been the second night in uni that an Asian guy has willingly made-out with me.

Though I think tonight would’ve gone further IF I have let it, but I didn’t.

I don’t know, I’m a girl who comes from Toronto, the most multicultural city in Toronto and I’m still having a hard trim adjusting to the fact that I can be liked by other ethnicity. I’m not sure if that is racist, because I am down playing myself here, but it is mind boggling that I do appeal to men.

Food for thought I guess.

Mother does.

I have a huge fear of bees/wasps!

I’ve never been stung by one and I don’t wanna start now.

Growing up I was a princess; I couldn’t help it. I grew up in a suburban city, there were no scary bugs and snakes and such. Mosquitoes came in the summer, worms in the spring, and practically nothing in autumn and fall.

But my Mother on the other hand, grew in South Asia. Oh where all them creatures are, snakes, insects, moths, things that bite you, things that are poisonous etc. So my mother also being a princess, it was  her mother (my grandmother) that had to kill all the little demons that sneaked into the house.

And so today, I ended up leaving the front door a tad bit open and a wasp flew into the house. Being a little pansy that I was I started flailing my arms running for me very life. Of course calling my mother to help me. She walks into the living room (like a boss might I say) with a fly swatter and a dustpan and smushes the wasp against the window. She picks it up with her dustpan and walks to the front door while she was accusing of letting the wasp in the house in the first place.

When she came back inside, she said

“Once you turn into a mother, you have to forget all the fears you have, because you’re not protecting yourself anymore. You’re protecting your children”. 

That struck a cord with me because, I’m afraid of all insects that fly, so will there be a day where I’m the one running to kill these little monsters for my children?